So, this is going to be a humbling post today-we all need them

For the past couple of weeks my training has been kicking my............
It is hard and it is demanding.  It is the training i need to do for the goals i want to achieve.  Sometimes these magnificent lungs i have been so lucky to get -get tired, they even can get colds and infections-imagine that?  Anyway, I was a little run down and feeling it in my body, the body that has been through so much but still keeps performing for me.  And I was feeling a little defeated in my training and i hated it.  And it almost broke me, almost.... (see, I am human too) But it didn't and it wont.

.What helped?  Well, a pep talk from my coach (who is also the man i love) reminding me who i am, why I do what i do, and all that I can achieve if I work for it.  I am not sure how he can separate those raw feelings of caring for me as the person he loves and as his athlete but he does it because he wants me to reach all my goals and dreams..I'm pretty lucky. 

Anyway, after swallowing some chunks of honest truth from him, some went down a little hard, some felt pretty special, I realized it is up to ME.  Just like I tell all of you, sometimes i need to be reminded  ..and I was.  And, I got it and I reacted. I took the action needed.

I walked into that clinic and as i started to train and it became difficult i forced myself to smile and say "Thank You" I forced myself to feel Thankful for that moment reminding myself that I would have given anything,anything (and trained until i bled if i had to) back when i was awaiting my lung transplant and then again when i was sick again waiting for my kidney transplant-anything, to be in the moment I was now working hard and training to accomplish the goals i set for myself. 
I made myself think of the times I held on to that treadmill for 2 minutes watching my feet walk slowly on it and trying to grab air to put in my lungs to breathe, the times I had to crawl to the bathroom during home dialysis because my body was too weak to carry me standing and i refused to use a bedpan and not get to the bathroom on my own. I remembered how much I "fought" and how determined I was 'to win" even if it was a mere accomplishment of the bathroom trip or a ".5 mile walk"  It mattered...it still does.

So those feelings of how much I fought for what i have now worked and i made it through that tough workout way better than the day before and I felt proud of myself.  I still have that fire within me and I need to "keep it lit" 

I'm going to remember that later today as i train again. I am going to walk through the doors of our training clinic feeling grateful and happy, "for the chance and opportunity" to be able to live like i am.

I hope you all take a moment today to feel grateful for your opportunities of today as you accomplish something for it will make the accomplishment that more special and maybe even ease the way.....

Grateful for all I have and i all i will achieve......

LIVE LIFE FULLY
Dottie